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margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDzdHmj9np6YZWcoHe_LjOpCYXMjlamEG-cjeU4zcw_zJirvns-Xez3TzbzTruYP8PyI4n60wCUc8UaMy6eH5k1Fto7HFdGtWwoPlMX0QaLw4gDzcmEKDmgjtANSuB_maIVfjtXTePAhaf/s200/006.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5707939282153334786" /></a><br /><br /><br />I have urge to post all in sudden. It's been 6 months since i blog about my life and so on. Blog has been a super private place for me to express my feeling and thoughts whenever i facing difficulties. Seriously, I'm so fucking wrong this time. Absolutely a difficult task appearing and i can't believe that the heart broke for once again! When I first met you, I honestly didn't know you're so important to me. But of course, she's more into you and she appreciated you very much. Am I the one who broke everything? I broke the friendship between you and me? I met you since January 2010..day by day pass, we are like sister to each other but WHY? WHY? AM I THE WRONG ONE? Like sorry? Please understand me and I knew i did so much wrong decision and causing you lose trust on me. But for so long, I had been care for too much. I knew everything is too late. I have a very strong sense that one day, everything will gone without a goodbye. This is most painful ever in human life. Okay, just treat I am the wrong and it's time to pay back everything again. I wonder how much do I have to pay for this time? Admitting sorry like a dog doesn't mean I'm scare. I'm wrong, I know but not necessary every part. Anyhow, just come to me for one shot. It's killing..<br /><br />Not dare to post any single thing on twitter, facebook or instagram. Not dare to tell my problem to anyone, or what. I wanted to but who else gonna be there for me? I don't wanna cause any argument anymore so i shall digest every little thing slowly. Because I did something wrong and i lose a friend like you. I'm sorry. But seriously, I'm deep deep down broken. The heart is bleeding like nobody business. Blaming myself for why will fall in love with a person that I knew is impossible?? Now I look back in previous month, i seriously missing this person so much. Had a supper steamboat with the family. Brothers and everyone looking good and joyful. Brother turn on tv, a concert show...when comes to Andy Hui sang 唯独你是不可取代. I look through the messages that he sent to me. Tears drop for a few and I quickly wipe it away. Ran to outside of the gate door. Three of my brothers saw but they remained silence. I wanted to cry out loud..wanted to hug the brother and cry as loud as I want. Yelling like a little girl wishing that someone could turn back to me. <br /><br />What you had told me in previous? Don't you remember? You sang "Last Christmas" to me..you sent me the music video to me,you gave me an add math equation ended with a love, you said you will sayang me no matter what, you said you had gave the best to me and it's time to stop. Don't end up all these with your tears.......a lot ..a lot..a lot more. I cry like I wanna die now! I never know myself will fall on a person again. Please dig out my heart. PLEASE, PLEASE, I BEG YOU GOD! My heart totally broke into pieces pieces again again and again! Let me be a heartless girl. I am so afraid of attaching again. People often come to me..gave me a lesson and that's it. I wanna be a cactus..a cactus that forever people will not come near to me. I really don't know how much time I need now..Assignments, examination and practicum is around the corner. I caused so much problems and making you girls hatred me to much. Maybe I really deserve so I shall settle all these problems by my own. Do you think i can defeat all these in one time? <br /><br />I want to change. Change back to my normal life as previous. B seriously gave me a big impact. You turned me upside down and now my life is like drinking, smoking, slacking, rotting, partying like there's no tomorrow. HOW GRUESOME LIFE IS THIS? All because you hurt me so fucking much in Zouk Club. I will never forget that night. You drew me a lot of dirty path and i hatred it so much! Ended, I hurt my best girl friend..now I got my pay already. I shall be alone and fight for all these. Before that, can i surrender? Crying while blogging is not a good way to express myself because i can don't know posting what shit thing on here. Cry ...cry until I feel tired then I go to bed. Repeat this for every night so i really seriously honestly feel so scare that the night arrive. People sleeping so soundly then I was like..thinking, missing, crying, dying. I know it's not me who suffering. But what? You guys can still contact, chat, expressing in twitter but ..I really afraid to do so. I'm just like a gutless bitch. Afraid of this and that..What will be the next day? Is there something gonna happen again?<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div></div> <br> </div> <div id="profile" style="display: none;"> <center> I'm Little Miss <big><b>최은진</b></big> I live in a cozy house over that street. I own a cat who looks like a pig. I love eating ramen and pocky sticks. 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