It's
3.57 right now..I'm supposed to be at bed n have a nice sleep. But
Sm says that she'll called me so I had a talked on phone with her as both of us miss each other voices!? Isn't it ridiculous? But then of course I miss her! :P We chit-chatting for around 1 hour plus.We gossips whatever rubbish stuffs to each other.. She jokes to me..make me laugh like a moron la weih.. How I wish all of the US will get together n have reunion? What if we organized
Surians reunion? :D
After jokes, n gossips, she questioned me regarding someone. I know what she wanna asked me n I'm ready to face about all this..Very clear is I'm no more a child. When I step in college the first day, I know there's more challenge stuffs that I gonna puzzle out. So what if this is considered as a small lil tiny matter? As for me,this matter is part of my life..I just can't figure out how am I going to let go all these..I hope to know more but I'm scare. Scare of what? Scare of crying I guess. Then tears automatically ran down to my cheek without my control n Bian knew it. I didn't told her but guess she already know.. Years after years, now realized that I had used a very long period of time on doing the same thing. I gain happiness,sadness,jovial,depressing, suffering,hurting n lots..But the word
REGRET will never appear on my mind as I deserved for what I had done. I will only feel
THANKS. Eventually,I clear up my mind n I have to stop it! Stop is just a verb to prevent I continue the wrong way. Anyhow, I'm trying but at least I didnt sit down n wait for a better day. Each of the day,I'm seeking for cheerfulness. Even everyday is my fussy busy day but then brain will definetely think of it..I wondering,what's going on? Recently,peoples surrounding questioned me a same question..I choose to don't voice out. But just now,it's different situation. I blurted everything out to my besty.. I'm sorry if I makes u feel uncomfortable on the phone talk. She comfort me n so on. It's been ages since I didnt touch this topic. Anyhow, after crying..I'm better now! I will get smack from my brother n another
2 of my besties if they know about this :P
I don't know what to do just as what u told me....blah..
[won't say it so clearly] . It may take me a longer time for me to drop off all these thingy. This 4 months is just a beginning for me. Guess a year?
*don't know* If anyone still curious about it,just go straight to the point ask me n I will tell u! It's not a secret anymore. Don't wish to hide it any longer..I post all these is not trying to want sympathized from my chums. Definetely not..I was just wanna blurted out at here.
By the way, I felt touched from the text which sent by Bian. She says the right point..I sleep late again..WTF?
Thank you for everything. I shall put a fullstop on the line.
Continue with your way. Take care.