
Recently,there's many sudden thingy happened which I don't know how am I going to puzzle out. As what I get was unhappiness. I've been depressed for numerous times so I thought nothing more can messed up with me. God damn it, the same thingy repeated again..Everything are so complicated which words unable express out. Every sides got different minded n thinking. So who's wrong n who's right? I doesn't have the qualification to judge or talk about this. I can't sense my own feeling anymore. No matter how hard I seek for happiness, it's useless! Nobody knows what's will going to happen on the next minute..Who knows I'll got a cancer n just die like that!? It could be..nothing is impossible right? I don't know my life will be how bright..Right now on this moment, I had a miserable life. Yeah, I know this post is very numb n deadening. Sounds like I'll suicide myself after this..I had this feeling once n I hope this will fade me away. It's already
2.10am now. I did revise my law just now as test will be given by this week still my mind was so empty n blank. Father questioned me that I couldn't gave him a complete answer. I'm sorry! I asked myself to PAY ATTENTION in the class,ended up?
*sigh* ... I really wanna leave here for temporary. Pointless for me to go on. I had realized the truth..This truth came out after few months later. I didnt know this is the real answer that supposed I have to know during that time. Anyway,it's already over. I was like digging a deep hole n place these inside the hole. I'm so heartache that I lost this "thingy" that I appreciate so much!I guess there's someone who hatred me very much now. I got no idea what to do. Friends advice me not to think about it..just don't care. Can I? It's not a easy job tough. Friends always willing give their time for me to waste on merely there's another my beloved willing to share whatever stuffs with me. That's my brother! This time, I don't even have the braveness to talk to him. Sometimes when u need someone by your side,unfortunately when u turn over..there's empty. What will u feel? I'm scare of being alone to accept all these. Do u know how scary was it? Physical was very tired same goes to mentally. I'm so weak now!
Kent T asked me to pray to God before I sleep..
K: Before sleep,remember pray to GodR: Y? K: So that tomorrow will be a better dayR: ???? I always hope for it..so far I don't see any miracle
I'm not kind of person that u think of. Faker not ME!